Wretched with strings in need of Mending

It's been a while since I last blogged. I have had computer problems but I'm up and running now praise God and thanks to a generous Computer tech Brother in Christ from my church.

This past week has brought about a an unfortunate news of some old dear friends of mine who were involved in a senseless tragedy. I try and make since of it all as my heart really breaks for all involved. I will say it was a rude awakening that this world is not my home and I must stay close to the Lord even when I can't always sense his presence. This tragedy has made me think more about my parenting and my own character issues that I need the Lord to mend within me.............

I am reminded of the undeserved blessings in my life and continuing to ask God to redeem those other parts of me that are still very broken. yes broken. I have broken pieces. I'm saying that out loud on this blog. Keeping it real. I know who I am in my brokenness. Not that I will tell all the broken pieces. Somethings others don't need to know about you. All anyone needs to know if they "demand" to know anything about me, is that I have accepted the blood of the lamb that was slain for me. I drink from the cup that he offers me and he has redeemed me and is continuing to do so. He promises not to leave me as I am,or anyone else if they are in pursuit of Christ Jesus.........

Right now I'm trying to finish a Book called Abba's Child by Brennan Manning.....will blog about that next time.
I'm also doing reading time with my boys reading Elijah The Shack and to to Isaiah Where the Red Fern Grows. It is good to read aloud to them and spend this individual time at night. I'm tired after reading for 40 -50 minutes..I read to them 20 to 25 minutes each.


Anyways here is a favorite song of mine that I think reflects a little bit of my heart.
Music of My Heart by Nicole C Mullens

 I'm not ashamed to tell the whole world, oh
Without you, I'm nothing at all
That I have strings in need of mending
I'm out of tune in certain parts
So strum the chords of mercy
Restore my soul completely
Lay your hand upon me
And this instrument will breathe

[Chorus]
'Cause you're the music of my heart
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
The melody within my soul
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
The song that holds me in the dark
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
The fire that warms me when I'm cold
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
The symphony that calms my fear
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
The lyric that I long to hear
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
The masterpiece, the work of art
Complete before I start
The music of my heart

Yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Creator of all that is lovely, oh
Write a tune upon my heart
And when you finish will you play me
Like a beautiful guitar?
Strum the chords of mercy
Restore my soul completely
Breathe life into me
And this instrument will sing

[Repeat Chorus]


Of my heart
I'm captivated
(Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Heart)
Of my heart
My soul's elated
(Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Heart)
Of my heart
Because
Every single line's full of love divine
Write me like a valentine

[Repeat Chorus]

Yeah, the music of my heart
Of my heart
The music of my heart
Of my heart
The music of my heart